May be it was needed as a re-charging event

yuh...after a few days of some really reckless times and so many things going out of control this "Jhari" from a senior Laboratorian in a typical straight forward Laboratorian's way was necessary to remind me of an evergreen source of spirit.

A strange day...

Actually...if I say that I still can't find any reason for my strange acts and feelings throughout the day it'd be wrong. Cuzz after a long time I’m again on the verge of being a victim of my own looseness. But this time Insha Allah I am a lot more careful and determined to get back. Cuzz this time I’ve got some idea about the parameters that work against my spirit. Which are of course the agony of lagging behind in the race and a very harmful frustrating "giving up" sort of mind set as it's worst consequence. But the fact is I can now feel that I ain getting no younger with time to keep relying on my "enthusiasm" of fighting back from any odd state.(Really it's not a good feeling to sense the effects of getting older..). That's why I guess I need to take care of my overall "Management". That's necessary to keep the fight on and Insha Allah gradually I'm getting better with that.

Trying to feel those 30 minutes of February 21,1952.....for a momment

Breaking 144 ..., marching on with the rally...., shouting loud against the power...., taking bullets..., giving lives....,.....and.... that's it!!!

Well the first question that should come in  mind is "..Why...!!?"

For mother language....!!?

....Right..!! ...But is that what it's all about .....!!!?

..........Actually that's what we see from outside....

I take it as the first signal from a nation standing strong for it's existence and identity....(After 200 years as we finally felt that we are being asked questions.. )

Taking co-ordinates from this spirit, I tried to draw the graph stretching it forward along the axis of time (many others may also have tried so.....) , plotting them with some more points from the event that occurred nineteen years later. Tried to realize the force that made the nation united to declare independence all on a sudden, taking weapons in hand and fight against a strong army in 1971..., fighting on.... sacrificing lives till the victory is achieved.

Now the question for my generation or the generation next could possibly be , "..Then what... !!?" or "...Now what...!!?"

My personal answer would be :  ..Let's try to imagine it for a moment

"....What if they didn't...!!!?"


Hopefully, when you find the answer, you can realize what you need to do or what you can do and more importantly what we are doing.... to proudly feel yourselves as a part of this great nation.

And for those soldiers, who are still living amongst us with the memory of their brave attempts, I believe they still hold the counter question that they held in their heart at those 30 minutes in '52 or at those 9 months in '71. The question is of course:
…. “.......Why not...?”
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One fine morning.......

8.43 0' clock....this was the time shown on the card reader as I punched mine this morning....at the office....and with a pleasure wrote it down on the interns log book ..Alhamdulillah... Well it means a lot to me after two consecutive defaulter appearance in front of "The Boss".. Except the "heavy duty" Farid vai..no other employee was seen at 6th floor at that time. After a while when my other colleagues started to congratulate me for this rare event I was a'ready back at my sit after a short break-fast session down at tower's entrance. So this obviously is a positive sign for the commitment to my duty. In the interrogation, I told the boss that I was a long time away from any official duty after resigning from first regular job. That session became more friendly to me when Boss appreciated the cause of my long interval...knowing the course I registered for this semester. He made me feel that I succeeded to convince him with the cause and telling him that I am gradually improving my punctuality. But I immediately realized that those words require an immediate reflection in practice.

Anyway, only if the exam on ASP.NET had not gone so bad...(Had I taken a better preparation..) rest of the day wouldn't have to be passed with agony..and I could well keep the title of this essay "One Fine Day.....!!!"...what I am earnestly looking forward to see...Insha Allah

Gitve it a title readers...

So many times in my life I've ruined all the opportunities I've got taking birth in this family. Actually for what strange reason do we go for shamelessly blaming our parents for the way they raised us or for what they didn't or couldn't do for us? When we utter these sort of shameless words we seem to forget the whole thing that we are surrounded by. Taking the last drop of juice out of them and giving nothing/hardly anything in return except agonies and disappointment have we ever tried to realize why they are still backing up with their hard-earned wealth ?

Repeating this sort of shameless misconducts even at this stage of the life indicates a desperation to cover the breakdowns of out life with a false consolidation. That's of course even more harmful .Yes, it's false ,because, it doesn’t actually work and is rather harmful for us.

May Allah let ourselves carefully avoid such sensitive misconducts .

Chor Chor Chor ...!!!dhorbo amra mile shobai...

Yes, "Emil er Goenda Bahini...."..One of my all time favorite movies. From childhood till now I've never managed to watch it full on the TV. Now as it is being telecasted again in BTV I think I shouldn't miss it..even thoguh 'm feeling a bit bad that I ain' gonna attend my e-commerce sem final ...but movie is not the only cause for it.

Had I been sincere in time

Had I been sincere in time!!!!!!!
Just finished 3 assignments on the course “Speech Recognition”. It was due to submit yesterday ie before the final exam. Now, after a disappointing final and mid 2 exam I am really feeling bad on how I lost my efforts after a good score in mid 1. Undoubtedly most of my classmates enjoyed the course, learned a lot and gave their all out effort for mid 2 and final and also for the assignments.
As usual I can show excuses of getting involved in an internship in a heavy duty software firm. But that should have been in the calculation before I started it.
..Oooh!!... the library is closing and I need to pack up.... So, no more sole searching for the moment. Just to take LL(Lesson Learned).

LL: No point in loosing the grip.