A strange day...

Actually...if I say that I still can't find any reason for my strange acts and feelings throughout the day it'd be wrong. Cuzz after a long time I’m again on the verge of being a victim of my own looseness. But this time Insha Allah I am a lot more careful and determined to get back. Cuzz this time I’ve got some idea about the parameters that work against my spirit. Which are of course the agony of lagging behind in the race and a very harmful frustrating "giving up" sort of mind set as it's worst consequence. But the fact is I can now feel that I ain getting no younger with time to keep relying on my "enthusiasm" of fighting back from any odd state.(Really it's not a good feeling to sense the effects of getting older..). That's why I guess I need to take care of my overall "Management". That's necessary to keep the fight on and Insha Allah gradually I'm getting better with that.