Restlessness, agitation, uncontrolled anger…these are clear signs of tension building up in me. So far I guess this has been a big problem in my entire student life. With a clear idea on the required course of action, I’ve always kept myself away from the required application. More correctly, I should say that in many occasions I drove myself away from my duties concentrating on wrong subjects in wrong times. I could clearly feel that I was not doing it right in those times. But that divine feeling never got strong enough. Because, it hardly ever clogged my quest for self destruction. With a fake slapdash look in my face and a careless body language I kept doing the wrong things, deteriorating my pathetic situation and wasting my invaluable times.
But, '...the life...' that was given to me, does not tolerate this sort of destructive carelessness for too long. As a consequence, I think I had to pay a lot....
You show negligence to life and you expect life to just let you get away intact with that sort of audacity........!!? ...You know very well that no normal sense can hold such castle in the sky.
...................It's just a matter of time before life charges you full toll of all your negligence, carelessness and weary actions.....
.....................And rightly so......!!..., Because you'd expect life to react evenly when you show some commitment towards it with a little bit of hard-work, paying some sort of attention to it and saving it from your self destructive fantasies. And by the Rahmat of Allah most of the times so it does. It pays you back some sweat taste of your care and commitment. Doesn't it..!!?
It’s not a good feeling at all when one finds himself or herself tricked or deceived by none but himself or herself. At times you may feel that this particular agony is actually killing you. In course of time this distressful feeling does end someday. But, the suffering does not completely end right there. It has got some aftereffects that are really hard to get-over. It's kind a domino-effect once all the corollaries of all your self-destructive acts sets off one after another. A strange sort of mindlessness may chain up all your confidence for an agonizingly long period. Imagine how miserable your survival would then become!!
And with the line of one of my favorite lines,
..........Life is an open road... It's the best story never told..................
I'd like to add...... In shaa Allah, you will get-through that agonizing time and will also get another chance to bounce back, if you manage to survive that period helping yourself a bit. That obviously means giving up your fake dame-care attitudes and staying away from making anymore mistakes in that tough time.
Alhamdulillah, in my professional life, I was never careless to my duties. But why couldn't I apply myself in the same way to my studies for a long time...yet...!!?
I only can wish that Insha Allah I’m done with all those 'Who cares..' stuff , a’ready paid up for all the previous recklessness and from now on I will try to apply myself to my duties properly In shaa Allah.. Pray for me everybody....
But, '...the life...' that was given to me, does not tolerate this sort of destructive carelessness for too long. As a consequence, I think I had to pay a lot....
You show negligence to life and you expect life to just let you get away intact with that sort of audacity........!!? ...You know very well that no normal sense can hold such castle in the sky.
...................It's just a matter of time before life charges you full toll of all your negligence, carelessness and weary actions.....
.....................And rightly so......!!..., Because you'd expect life to react evenly when you show some commitment towards it with a little bit of hard-work, paying some sort of attention to it and saving it from your self destructive fantasies. And by the Rahmat of Allah most of the times so it does. It pays you back some sweat taste of your care and commitment. Doesn't it..!!?
It’s not a good feeling at all when one finds himself or herself tricked or deceived by none but himself or herself. At times you may feel that this particular agony is actually killing you. In course of time this distressful feeling does end someday. But, the suffering does not completely end right there. It has got some aftereffects that are really hard to get-over. It's kind a domino-effect once all the corollaries of all your self-destructive acts sets off one after another. A strange sort of mindlessness may chain up all your confidence for an agonizingly long period. Imagine how miserable your survival would then become!!
And with the line of one of my favorite lines,
..........Life is an open road... It's the best story never told..................
I'd like to add...... In shaa Allah, you will get-through that agonizing time and will also get another chance to bounce back, if you manage to survive that period helping yourself a bit. That obviously means giving up your fake dame-care attitudes and staying away from making anymore mistakes in that tough time.
Alhamdulillah, in my professional life, I was never careless to my duties. But why couldn't I apply myself in the same way to my studies for a long time...yet...!!?
I only can wish that Insha Allah I’m done with all those 'Who cares..' stuff , a’ready paid up for all the previous recklessness and from now on I will try to apply myself to my duties properly In shaa Allah.. Pray for me everybody....
